Being without a father for so many years is strange. i still try and receate him in my mind in order to find some guidance in ceratin situations, and at those times wonder what he would have been like. And I'm nearly the age he was when he died! So it is a constant puzzle for me, not always at the front of my mind, but this tussle between the 37 year old self and the child - both still craving that guidance at some level. I should write something at greater length about this. I wish ther was some evidence of him on the web I could point to. I should scan some photos of the buildings he designed.